I will share a summary of my journey to you – a little story you may relate to your own path, while getting to know me a little better in the process.
I was born into a very simple Catholic family in New York State. In most ways, I never noticed anything too different about the way I perceived the world. I fit in most places and had a very loving family to support me. I spent my early years from age 6 to 11 living abroad in Italy. Then, I came back to America and have lived in New York State since then.
As a young child and still today, I am very observant with a keen interest in how or what makes a person tick. I could sit for hours just watching people. In my teens I began to have an interest in self-development. I would read books consistently and intently to learn. Although the subject matter of this “learning” has changed a bit, I continue this thirst for knowledge of the Self to this very day.
I have always been aware of how others felt about me or themselves. I thought this was normal knowing. Throughout my journey, I found a real love and benefit from journaling my thoughts. This helped me so much!! I didn’t truly understand why at the time, but I understand now that it helped me filter and release emotions.
Like most teens, I was also moody. I used food to help me feel better and yup, this went into a crazy eating disorder. And yes, I did win this battle with food and yes, that is another story to share with you.
The moodiness continued throughout my twenties and got worse after I had my children in my thirties. I was very ingenious and kept finding solutions that would help me. I did try to understand or find the reasons behind my moods, but never could truly pin-point it. Managing my energy was a big part of my day-to-day life without having a real clue as to why or what was affecting me. Mind you, nobody really knew this was part of me.
At one point, the moodiness did spike and it was anxiety. On and off, I would fight symptoms of depression. Most days, I was fine in the mornings but experienced definite periods of overwhelm or fatigue in the afternoon. Sometimes I would just have to put myself in time-out and away from my family. All along I was trying to keep it together until one day I just had enough!!! At that point, I took myself in tears to the doctor and asked for medication. That was a humbling day for me.
On medication, I saw a whole new world! I realized how wonderful life was when my brain stopped the endless chatter. I was calm. I remember telling my husband I didn’t realize anyone could feel this wonderful! I wasn’t waking up anxious and I was relaxed about life. I took things in stride without a worry. Sure some of my old ways were still present, but I was soooo much better!!
This is just about the time I woke up to my gifts – five years ago.
Just so you know, this awakening happens differently for everyone. In my case, I had a person come into my life. I was left dumbfounded and confused by my own emotions and questioned everything I knew about myself. Part of me was totally annoyed that someone could rock my solidly planned-out world.
I began to question everything I knew about myself as a result.
I looked in the mirror and said aloud, “Who are you and where is Michelle?”
And when you ask, you get answers!!
The full story behind this awakening is too much to share in this post. The bottom line is that it got my attention and I was now consciously aware of things in me that made no logical sense! I could read thoughts and my emotions were totally out of control. There was a lot going on and I, for some crazy reason, just knew things to be true without a doubt.
This whole thing left me feeling way too vulnerable and scared of the strength of the connection. So I did what any logical person would do: I ran the other way. I burned the connection to the ground. Yup, my head said “burn it!”
After that rollercoaster ride craze, I went into a huge soul journey to find answers. I had a wonderful mentor guide me through much of that stage of my development and is still present to this very day. I have had many others teach and guide me as well.
I have learned and continue to learn many crazy lessons to teach me and my stubborn mind that there is more to be understood than what is visible. I have worked hard to advance and learn about our best functioning from mind, body and soul. I have learned about energy healing using reiki and integrated energy therapy. I have walked and continue to walk the path of self-healing. I do believe in reincarnation. And yes, I am walking the path of developing my gifts and tapping into higher knowledge.
My role today is to spread some seeds to others who are asleep and also guide the Empaths who are awake about their own development.
This is a very brief synopsis of me and where I am today. I love the way my life has been transformed by this new knowledge and awareness. I am very blessed!
Much Love, Michelle